My life has been full of so many ups & downs this past year- I am looking forward to what I will call, "My New Normal" in 2012.
I was faced with so many choices- good & bad, that I felt I was lost for the most part of 2011. As I was heading down this new path the Lord blessed me with, I was still trying to function with all my old baggage. Jesus said, "Give it to me!". However I still drug it around trying to patch & repair it a long the way. A little duct tape here, rubber band there. I think all I ended up doing was putting bricks in it & feeling completely heavy all the time. I will not lie- I am still heavy but I am aware. I am aware of what I must give up & let go- I must let God. That is it. Let God work in me & through me like I could never do on my own.
This is not all about me as some may say or feel. It is all about Him. God is leading me & whenever I sway from what I hear Him speak- I trip & fall...How can the work He is doing through me come to fruition if I do not listen & trust Him.
I pray that in this New Year I will commit to spend time with God first- and trust only in Him. I must give up the lies of this world & lies of my past and know that I am a precious child of God- clothed with dignity & strength.. Thank you all who are on this journey with me. God has surrounded me with people who show unconditional love as if it is straight from the Father.
I am blessed with a loving, faithful God. He has given me a husband I always dreamed of & precious girls whom still my heart daily. I have a huge family of friends & loved ones that without The Bridge Fellowship I would have not known.
As I look back- it is so clear He has given me what I needed to get past what I did not have & always searched for, but remained heartbroken...He gave me a relationship with Him that is backed up with good & faithful servants.
Thank you Jesus. I know the road will not always be smooth. I know you may hear me write sadness one day & joy the next. You know what- that is okay. I hope & pray that anyone who reads this takes away that transparency is so freeing. Why do we hide what the One who matters already knows? Be free...in Him.
Love to all!
Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Now Where?
I know everyone has been here at some point in their life, that is...... LOST. I do not mean in a spiritual sense (some of you may be there too), but in a humbling sense. For the 1st time in my life -I love Jesus more than I ever imagined. My marriage is better than ever. I am a better parent than I ever thought I could be ( a daily struggle)- but still lost when it comes to my purpose.
In the midst of this daze- I somehow feel like I am EXACTLY where God wants me for today. YES- we are going through struggles I never wanted or thought I needed, but God must have thought I did. So, I will choose to be still & listen.....
I never knew silence could be so peaceful. God is saying:
" It is OKAY to be completely dependent on Me! This is all I ever wanted for you My child- so sit there, patiently & I will guide you. I will not fail you & I will not let you hurt or struggle more than you can handle...Lean on Me..."
Why oh why do we say Okay Jesus- you take it..We truly feel we will give it to Him...Then life happens & we think He needs our help! Really??? Isn't that Why we gave it to Him in the 1st place... So I challenge each of you - as I do myself once, twice- well a bunch a day---to Give it all to Him & fight taking it back as much as you would a snake attacking you..This is Satan's perfect plan. He wants you to hurt, he wants you to depend on yourself & this world. Refuse Satan & give it to the greatest Father you will ever know...
If you know me well- you know I am struggling with a lot. Today I chose to say, "Here Jesus- it is yours. Take our finances, Take my stress, Take my Guilt, Take my Anger, Take my shame- Take it all- just take me sweet Jesus & make me what you desire of me & lead me where You think is best for me to go...
I give it all to You...
Yours,
Kristy
7 I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. 8 Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ 9 and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ.[a] For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith. 10 I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, 11 so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!
In the midst of this daze- I somehow feel like I am EXACTLY where God wants me for today. YES- we are going through struggles I never wanted or thought I needed, but God must have thought I did. So, I will choose to be still & listen.....
I never knew silence could be so peaceful. God is saying:
" It is OKAY to be completely dependent on Me! This is all I ever wanted for you My child- so sit there, patiently & I will guide you. I will not fail you & I will not let you hurt or struggle more than you can handle...Lean on Me..."
Why oh why do we say Okay Jesus- you take it..We truly feel we will give it to Him...Then life happens & we think He needs our help! Really??? Isn't that Why we gave it to Him in the 1st place... So I challenge each of you - as I do myself once, twice- well a bunch a day---to Give it all to Him & fight taking it back as much as you would a snake attacking you..This is Satan's perfect plan. He wants you to hurt, he wants you to depend on yourself & this world. Refuse Satan & give it to the greatest Father you will ever know...
If you know me well- you know I am struggling with a lot. Today I chose to say, "Here Jesus- it is yours. Take our finances, Take my stress, Take my Guilt, Take my Anger, Take my shame- Take it all- just take me sweet Jesus & make me what you desire of me & lead me where You think is best for me to go...
I give it all to You...
Yours,
Kristy
Philippians 3:7-11
New Living Translation (NLT)
7 I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. 8 Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ 9 and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ.[a] For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith. 10 I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, 11 so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
It's ok to take care of me
There comes a time in life where we have to make decisions that are hard. Decisions you wish you were never given to make. The difference now is, I take them all to God. I ask, or plead with Jesus to help me.
1 Chronicles 16:10-11 Glory in his holy name;
I do not know the path that I will choose- I just know I have heard clearly from Him that I need to work on healing. A lot has happened to me in my life & I am finally realizing that my body is His temple. If I am to honor God- to minister to others, I need to prepare myself. This means I need to learn to forgive- and then work through the process of how to move on. Our ways are not His ways- Wow that's hard to accept! It has never been more evident of this, than in my life right now. I realize that trials come & they are so very painful. However- the feeling of closeness with God and the relationship you develop is part of His plan.
I know now, I am not responsible for the actions, words or feelings of others. I can not change another human being. All I can do is pray for them & lift them up to our Father. My pastor once stated, "If the Holy Spirit can not change them, you can't". It is so true. I hope through my prayers we all come to our knees & fully accept God, live for God & not of this world or worldly things I call "stuff". It is not for me to own the decisions of others- nor is it for me to judge their actions. There is only one judge & that is Jesus. I am only responsible for me & leading my children.
I do not know what tomorrow brings- or how I will get there. I am a mess. That is hard to say. What I do know is that if the good Lord brought me to it, He will bring me through it. He has blessed me with the best husband and children a wife-or a mom could ask for, or even feel like I deserve. I love you Charles with all my heart & soul and THANK YOU for loving me "for better or worse, for richer for poorer". You have made God proud- You honor Him, you honor your vows and you honor me ( as Christ loved the church). It's strange when you actually "get" the old saying ~ We may not have it all together, but together we have it all~.
There are people in my life who give me wings- who lift me & support me when I do not know where to go. They remind me that it is ok to be where I am today. I am so very thankful for each of you. You all know who you are. I am weak, I am humble & I am loosing my prideful ways. I will be okay because God says I am His.
~Dear Lord please rebuild me & guide me on the path You want me to go. I am Yours. Help me know where to go next, what to say & how to get there. Thank you for dying for me & rescuing me from myself. I am a complete mess without you.. Love- Your child
1 Chronicles 16:10-11 Glory in his holy name;
let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.
Look to the LORD and his strength;
seek his face always.
I do not know the path that I will choose- I just know I have heard clearly from Him that I need to work on healing. A lot has happened to me in my life & I am finally realizing that my body is His temple. If I am to honor God- to minister to others, I need to prepare myself. This means I need to learn to forgive- and then work through the process of how to move on. Our ways are not His ways- Wow that's hard to accept! It has never been more evident of this, than in my life right now. I realize that trials come & they are so very painful. However- the feeling of closeness with God and the relationship you develop is part of His plan. I know now, I am not responsible for the actions, words or feelings of others. I can not change another human being. All I can do is pray for them & lift them up to our Father. My pastor once stated, "If the Holy Spirit can not change them, you can't". It is so true. I hope through my prayers we all come to our knees & fully accept God, live for God & not of this world or worldly things I call "stuff". It is not for me to own the decisions of others- nor is it for me to judge their actions. There is only one judge & that is Jesus. I am only responsible for me & leading my children.
I do not know what tomorrow brings- or how I will get there. I am a mess. That is hard to say. What I do know is that if the good Lord brought me to it, He will bring me through it. He has blessed me with the best husband and children a wife-or a mom could ask for, or even feel like I deserve. I love you Charles with all my heart & soul and THANK YOU for loving me "for better or worse, for richer for poorer". You have made God proud- You honor Him, you honor your vows and you honor me ( as Christ loved the church). It's strange when you actually "get" the old saying ~ We may not have it all together, but together we have it all~.
There are people in my life who give me wings- who lift me & support me when I do not know where to go. They remind me that it is ok to be where I am today. I am so very thankful for each of you. You all know who you are. I am weak, I am humble & I am loosing my prideful ways. I will be okay because God says I am His.
~Dear Lord please rebuild me & guide me on the path You want me to go. I am Yours. Help me know where to go next, what to say & how to get there. Thank you for dying for me & rescuing me from myself. I am a complete mess without you.. Love- Your child
Friday, May 27, 2011
Brooklynn-our 16 year old..I couldn't post with earlier msg.
"Sisters- Samantha & Brooklynn"
My wonderful Family
She can not stand whipped cream :)
She PASSED!!!!
One of those days...
You ever have one of those days where so much is going through your head- you don't even know where to start? I am there today. Some good, some bad, some happy some sad... So I've decided to go to Scripture 1st & find clear direction before I decide to tackle this day. The one I was led to 1st was:
The 2nd is God's Promise- A beautiful rainbow...
25-26"If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.
27-29"Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? All this time and money wasted on fashion—do you think it makes that much difference? Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.
30-33"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
I am at a place in my life now- where at some point every person need to be....completely dependent on God. It doesn't matter where you are in life- financially, in age, spiritually, etc. - you need to have "the moment" where you know you can not make it without Jesus..... I am thankful in the midst of issues in my life. I do not have to look far to see how truly blessed I am no matter what "the world" throws at me.
Ephesians 5:20 Giving thanks always for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,
At this moment- I am so thankful for our oldest daughter who just turned 16 yesterday! Wow, where has time flown by??? Weren't we just fighting over wearing a "Blue's Clues" outfit...Now you have your license & we are expected to let you drive off in a car! Yikes..The blessing in this is that Brooklynn loves Jesus & knows Him even more than I ever thought about Him at 16...I won't even go there..At least not today, lol! Knowing this we are comforted. She loves God- therefor nothing in this world can stop her. We have nothing to fear b/c the Lord our God is with her! There is nothing more she could do in life to make us any prouder than when she committed her life to Christ.
I know I am rambling on & could continue but will break to get some work done. I may return soon b/c writing gives me peace. I am including a few pictures of my day yesterday.
The 1st picture is of our church, The Bridge, that is under construction & I passed by & took a snap as I drove. I can not wait to worship here!
The 2nd is God's Promise- A beautiful rainbow...
The last ones here are us getting to meet Brooklynn after soccer practice to see her on her real birthday. We went on to lifegroup because she had practice We thought we weren't going to get to see her. We were super excited that we were able to meet her at Cinco! Well Blog not letting me post- so I'll post after this in a separate post.
Thank you all for reading by "stuff" & being in my life- Love & Hugs- Happy Friday!
Friday, May 20, 2011
Give it to God
I know you have all had those days where you don't know whether to be happy or sad...Some things are going so well & a couple things just plain stink. Why is it we allow the bad to overpower the good? God says cast your burdens upon Me...That's it- cast it, but the tricky part is not "reeling it back in".
We must decide to to give Praise to all that we have been blessed with, then pray through the trials. It is proven that the bad times will draw you closer to Jesus..I know we all want that- but are we willing to sacrifice for it- to suffer? That cross was a pretty big sacrifice, but resulted in the greatest gift ever given to mankind...Eternal life.
Wow! It's kind of humorous when I step out away from my issues & look at what is good- I see how truly blessed I am. *Today my challenge to you & to myself is to smile & let it go...When sadness overcomes you- or a negative thought comes to mind- smile & remember God's got it. His Word is clear.
"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice & be glad in it." Psalm 118:24
-Love God, Love yourself, and show Love to others. Decide to make it a great day.
We must decide to to give Praise to all that we have been blessed with, then pray through the trials. It is proven that the bad times will draw you closer to Jesus..I know we all want that- but are we willing to sacrifice for it- to suffer? That cross was a pretty big sacrifice, but resulted in the greatest gift ever given to mankind...Eternal life.
Wow! It's kind of humorous when I step out away from my issues & look at what is good- I see how truly blessed I am. *Today my challenge to you & to myself is to smile & let it go...When sadness overcomes you- or a negative thought comes to mind- smile & remember God's got it. His Word is clear.
"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice & be glad in it." Psalm 118:24
-Love God, Love yourself, and show Love to others. Decide to make it a great day.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
My Baby is Graduating Kindergarten
You know we always want to rush through life- that is until moments happen & you question, "Where did time go?" My little girl is about to finish kindergarten & I feel like she just took her 1st steps.
I thank the good Lord for my recent trials- He allowed me time with my baby I will never get back. I could volunteer in classroom, eat lunch when I pleased with her, go on field trips, etc...These are the days she will remember. No amount of money could replace what God is allowing me to experience- not the good or bad. All of it has brought me closer to Him- and closer to my family. I am closer to God than ever, my marriage is better & I am a better mom & friend. Plus I have been able to help others & volunteer which makes my heart happy.
These things you can't put a price tag on. How do we pay the bills? How do we survive? GOD- He is the Way, the Truth and the Light. He has & will always provide- or lead me where He wants me to go.
These things you can't put a price tag on. How do we pay the bills? How do we survive? GOD- He is the Way, the Truth and the Light. He has & will always provide- or lead me where He wants me to go.
A Little about me to Start
I am 1st a lover of Jesus- but also a devoted wife ( to Charles) & mommy of 2 Beautiful Daughters (Brooklynn & Samantha).
I decided to start a blog to discuss, or post all the random thoughts I have- as well as share from my mistakes or trials- or great ideas. Some days it may just be a surprise.
I have found myself unemployed (in a corporate sense) for the first time since I was 15. This was not what I chose, but what I was dealt. I know the Lord has another purpose for me...now to figure out what that is! Please follow me on my journey & feel free to join in :) I know I love helping others- maybe this will be a way. God Bless-
I decided to start a blog to discuss, or post all the random thoughts I have- as well as share from my mistakes or trials- or great ideas. Some days it may just be a surprise.
I have found myself unemployed (in a corporate sense) for the first time since I was 15. This was not what I chose, but what I was dealt. I know the Lord has another purpose for me...now to figure out what that is! Please follow me on my journey & feel free to join in :) I know I love helping others- maybe this will be a way. God Bless-
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