My life has been full of so many ups & downs this past year- I am looking forward to what I will call, "My New Normal" in 2012.
I was faced with so many choices- good & bad, that I felt I was lost for the most part of 2011. As I was heading down this new path the Lord blessed me with, I was still trying to function with all my old baggage. Jesus said, "Give it to me!". However I still drug it around trying to patch & repair it a long the way. A little duct tape here, rubber band there. I think all I ended up doing was putting bricks in it & feeling completely heavy all the time. I will not lie- I am still heavy but I am aware. I am aware of what I must give up & let go- I must let God. That is it. Let God work in me & through me like I could never do on my own.
This is not all about me as some may say or feel. It is all about Him. God is leading me & whenever I sway from what I hear Him speak- I trip & fall...How can the work He is doing through me come to fruition if I do not listen & trust Him.
I pray that in this New Year I will commit to spend time with God first- and trust only in Him. I must give up the lies of this world & lies of my past and know that I am a precious child of God- clothed with dignity & strength.. Thank you all who are on this journey with me. God has surrounded me with people who show unconditional love as if it is straight from the Father.
I am blessed with a loving, faithful God. He has given me a husband I always dreamed of & precious girls whom still my heart daily. I have a huge family of friends & loved ones that without The Bridge Fellowship I would have not known.
As I look back- it is so clear He has given me what I needed to get past what I did not have & always searched for, but remained heartbroken...He gave me a relationship with Him that is backed up with good & faithful servants.
Thank you Jesus. I know the road will not always be smooth. I know you may hear me write sadness one day & joy the next. You know what- that is okay. I hope & pray that anyone who reads this takes away that transparency is so freeing. Why do we hide what the One who matters already knows? Be free...in Him.
Love to all!
