Now Where?

I know everyone has been here at some point in their life, that is...... LOST. I do not mean in a spiritual sense (some of you may be there too), but in a humbling sense. For the 1st time in my life -I love Jesus more than I ever imagined. My marriage is better than ever. I am a better parent than I ever thought I could be ( a daily struggle)- but still lost when it comes to my purpose.
In the midst of this daze- I somehow feel like I am EXACTLY where God wants me for today. YES- we are going through struggles I never wanted or thought I needed, but God must have thought I did. So, I will choose to be still & listen.....
I never knew silence could be so peaceful. God is saying:
" It is OKAY to be completely dependent on Me! This is all I ever wanted for you My child- so sit there, patiently & I will guide you. I will not fail you & I will not let you hurt or struggle more than you can handle...Lean on Me..."

Why oh why do we say Okay Jesus- you take it..We truly feel we will give it to Him...Then life happens & we think He needs our help! Really??? Isn't that Why we gave it to Him in the 1st place... So I challenge each of you - as I do myself once, twice- well a bunch a day---to Give it all to Him & fight taking it back as much as you would a snake attacking you..This is Satan's perfect plan. He wants you to hurt, he wants you to depend on yourself & this world. Refuse Satan & give it to the greatest Father you will ever know...

If you know me well- you know I am struggling with a lot. Today I chose to say, "Here Jesus- it is yours. Take our finances, Take my stress, Take my Guilt, Take my Anger,  Take my shame- Take it all- just take me sweet Jesus & make me what you desire of me & lead me where You think is best for me to go...
I give it all to You...

Yours,
              Kristy

Philippians 3:7-11

New Living Translation (NLT)

 ⁷ I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. ⁸ Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ ⁹ and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ.^[a] For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith. ¹⁰ I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, ¹¹ so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!